I almost decided to stop this blog. But I figured it can be a way for my children and grandchildren to know me better after I am gone.
What has happened since my last post? Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, they did. Now I am practically back to square one in my life. I don't want to blame anybody for what happened to my life. I should have done more than just let things pass. And so I move on again.
There were significant milestones in my life recently. One of my children got married. Kathleen got married to Percy last March 2012. She now carries the Pilotin family name. It pained me that I could not be there for the wedding. My feelings of insecurity took over me and somehow I found a reason not to be there on her special day. I deeply regretted that. One of these days I have to sincerely apologize to her for that. Kathleen and Percy are struggling for a stable life and again it pains me that I cannot assist them as much as I want to. My only consolation is that they will grow strong from what they experience in their lives.
Kathleen has since given birth to my first grandchild, Dandrei. He is now just over a year old and is growing strong every day. The little guy doesn't smile much and frowns a lot. I haven't seen him for a while though I receive pictures and videos of him regularly from Kathleen and Ritz. He has some adorable pictures and I keep one in my wallet.
And then Kathren moved to Surabaya this year. She now works at the Opus Dei center there while studying Bahasa Indonesia. I think she really misses Indonesia and feels it to be her home. I call her once a week to check on her and I feel that she wants to visit Jakarta. She has not said so openly though. I believe she's happy where she is and I am happy for her.
As for Diane and Alex, well they're keeping their Mom and Grandma company. Alex moved to my brother's house to give room for Diane, Ritz and Mang at the apartment. It is my brother's way of helping me out. Alex drops by our house regularly to check on his Mom. I am saddened that Alex has to be separated but I hope it will teach him to stand on his own.
It is almost time to go home. I am at work right now. I have to go.
